Real or fake

whats real? whats fake? who knows.

maybe i shall just not bother.

21 July 2014

woo.. so damn long since I last wrote a blog.. I think I should start to jot down little little things before I start forgetting lots of stuff.

oh well... prolly last updates since marriage?


9 January 2013..
Our wedding day...
oh well. loads of things happening...
morning ceremony...
phototaking..
night dinner at Mount Fabor Qian Xi Lou...

11 January 2013
- bel 7th bday. celebrated at Studio M hotel..

7  Feb to 13 Feb..
- Our honeymoon!
  Hokkaido trip wif hubby... Tour with hongthai agency..
( I lost my wedding band in the snow... on the very second morning.. sobs.. hubby replaced a new one after our trip.. heartpain.. )

10 May 2013
-Had my first HPT!

20 May 2013
- I seen my little beanie!

oh well.. it has been a tough journey...
since 2013 start hubby has been busy on work.. working late everyday...

soon in june I finish my exams... my final papers in Unisim...

11 June to 17 June
Australia goldcoast trip. wif hub and bel.
free and easy.. drove ourself. went to all the themeparks.. haha.

1 August 2013
Hi my little beanie.. u are a girl!

18 October 2013
I had my graduation days..
-Attendees : Hubby, Mum, Belle, and Sarah who came later.
oh well.. so fat during the grad day.. hehe. fatt n fatt. so fat. cox im 5 mths preggy!

12 Nov 2013
Hubby bday.. let me see... I think I treated him to buffet at Melt.. Mandrain Oriental.. still got buy cake for him in morning hor, buy a cake with bel n give him at ya kun toing bahru. ha.

23 Nov 2013..
its mine!! hubby treat thai village. hmm.

Wow... so that's the mark of 2013... ~ eventful year? haha.

lets see what happen in year 2014!

3th January 2014..
Early 3rd Jan morning... baby girl decided to make her appearance at 38 weeks! oh ya.. day before I was vomiting and having a fever... hubby is not home.. call n call... his only back at like almost 9pm? haix... angry. still say I am the one who anyhow eat tts why sick. anyway went downstairs to see a doc and told that I am having a stomach flu.. sigh. ok had med after reach home.. anyway... back to 4th morning... went to toilet and I saw red.. called up hubby as he went to buy breakfast... so well I showered.. eat breakkie.. called clinic.. and best of all Dr chan is not around... zZz.... he will only be back at night...

ok.. went to hospital ward at like noon time... was having diarrhoa at the same time... vomiting... start to feel contraction. but it was not close.. the takeover gynae dr branda was called over... oh well. knn. she charges me ok.. for like less den 5 mins. only chk the dilation. n the chk she done was so much painful den the nuses. stupid.

anyway was so painful n the diarrhoea make me cun walk n went off. although she says I can go home n will only give birth after midnight or next day. but den I just cant get out. vomited. and den took a bath. admit to labour ward.

oh well. had my epidurial at 9pm? haha. Dr chan is back from his trip. he was being called over after he landed in sin. he came... told me to slp n he visit me tomorrow. who knoes... I started dilating quite fast. and was already 10cm by midnight.. oh well... baby girl was out at 4th January 1am!

stayed in hospital... myself. woo. hubby went home. catch slp. n settle the doggy at home. run in n out of hosp. tiring 3 nights stay... trying hard to BF... to slp. to handle baby. pain everywhere.. torturous.

back home on 7th? haha. I think. had confinement lady for 3 weeks. as its CNY period. wanna save so nvr had for full 28days. .. full of joy tireness many many...

oh well...

11 January 2014
Bel bday celebration at Ridout Macdonalds.

25 January 2014
Karine baby shower at Totts studio!

Seeing you growing up day by day... lovable.

23 march 2014..
A fren had gone. hopefully to the better. it was a shock and I guess a lot people who knew him still not able to accept the way he choose to live for the better.

21 july 2014..
today.. I realised that why people are just not contented.. wanting to compare.. or rather I would say 生在福中不知福？I dunno if u just deliberately agitating me at times like asking me if I wanna see u n ur ex family pic. or indirectly telling me tt ur ex gives u 100% of his money. but somehow yes u help me for lots of stuff.. sometimes hai. I really dunno. but.

yes.. i know that life is not about comparing... but why... somehow it felt so different...
my heart feels sick, feeling everything is so tired...

so many things running through my mind... am i right to choose this path? will i really get the same happiness i will get? how to compare the happiness? i dont know, but i just think....

how i wish to be happy everyday...

Its gonna be year end soon..

why things had become this way... ha.. its all because of me and myself.. sometimes I'm wondering if i do not exist in this world... not staying here.. why do we need to live when we will die eventually.... dun understand..

can't imagine how time flies... its already going to mid of year 2011.

can't imagine how much things that happened within this year...

one decision u made, can create a damn big change in life..

sometimes i wonder.. if there is a "what if" that exist...

if the time could turn back, will i still make the same decision? what will happened eventually?
what will it be like.. and where will i be today?

^mEm0rIeS^

可惜不是你

可惜不是你 - 梁靜茹


這一刻　突然覺得好熟悉
像昨天　今天同時在放映
我這句語氣　原來好像你
不就是我們愛過的證據

差一點　騙了自己騙了你
愛與被愛　不一定成正比
我知道被疼　是一種運氣
但我無法完全交出自己

努力為你改變　卻變不了　預留的伏線
以為在你身邊　那也算永遠
彷彿還是昨天　可是昨天　已非常遙遠
但閉上我雙眼　我還看得見

可惜不是你　陪我到最後
曾一起走卻走失那路口
感謝那是你　牽過我的手
還能感受那溫柔

那一段　我們曾心貼著心
我想我更有權力關心你
可能你已走進別人風景
多希望也有星光的投影

为什么命运要这样折腾着我。。
让我们再一次的遇见。。
我相信这不是缘份。。
感觉。。
如果这一切都不存在。。
如果时间能倒回。。
一切能从零开始。。
选择。。
结果。。

time flies so fast that i did not even realised its been months since i came here..

had been working for full time since 1st september... with smm..
job was alright i guess.. but was kindof bored... no internet access on individual comp.. sad...

never regret buying my htc i guess.. hahaha.. with a data plan.. it helps a little.

finally finish all my classes... but going to revision class later... waiting for exams.

exams is like next week..
but damn.. i am basically still slacking and playing around. =x
not in the exams mood..

still gotta keep reminding myself when is my paper. maybe due to work... i got no feelings for exams.. haha..

and its onli the starting...! still years to go... sigh..


after years of not going to drinks...

drank for 3 consecutive weekends. -.-"
1st week on last last fri - erdinger
2nd week last fri - heineken plus martel
3rd week thurs - chivas
next week -->>> (unknown) drink my burnt notes with water. hahaha

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Eyes On Me

Game: Final Fantasy VIII
Song: Eyes on Me
Perfomed by: Faye Wong

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

你为什么骗我 - 叮当

这次我走开再没有话要说出来
我不想再期待走下去还能多精彩
我不了解你怎能心安
也捉不住你的倔强
可是我知道你你为什么说谎

你说你还在一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过
说我没等过难过我也想说
也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪怎么就流下来
你说你还在一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过
说我没等过难过我也想说
也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪怎么就流下来
你不能说我没有爱过
说我没等过难过我也想说
也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪怎么就流下来
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪怎么就流下来

自己不知道自己要的是什么，还比知道还要痛苦。
永远不了解自己在想什么， 想了太多，太少。

常常告诉自己，要懂得珍惜身边的人，珍惜真心爱你的人。
又问一下自己。。 我有做到吗？

珍惜对你好的人，因为这不是他的责任。。

李圣杰--手放开

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概

不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋

最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待

我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

Yeah... Iphone 4 is out....~!

But..... I CANNOT BUY....

contract till NEXT YEAR SEPTEMBER leh!!!!!! haix...
if wanna buy this year september must top up 200 bucks...

sad.. continue use my long long ago samsung..

curse the person who pick up my samsung jet and dun return me... wohahhaha...

recently.. my sleeping time changed again... argh...

should i get a full time job now? hmm... or continue to tryout the ppty market and work part time leh?.. faints..

hoping for miracle...
that i will kena 1st or 2nd prize toto.. wohahahhaa!

alright!!!!!

past one mth had been working part time else where.. but had already ended!!! so im so free again??

no....

busy for my WORLD CUP 2010!!!! hahahahhaa...

no match for this 2 days.. yawns..

next one..

Friday.... Holland & Brazil.... Uruguay & Ghana!!!
tough tough decision.. keke..

but i believe brazil will still win...

wad a waste that japan was out... =( komano must be still feeling veri sad.. because.. he missed the penalty kick!
but still.. well done japan! as the only asia team who had played so far!!!!

good luck fellows~!!

HUAT AR!

after being jobless for nearly 2 mths...

will share my thoughts... hahahhahaha...

okie... but im still busy!!!!!!! 2 mths from my last day till now, i have yet to blog a single thing... yeah...

this shows how lazy and how busy i am lo...

though im considered "jobless", but have been doing part time here and there...

fun is fun... carefree... but... realli broke leh! LOL...


next next... ive got into uniSIM! tgt with hui xian and some of her colleagues.. -.-"

well... starting sch in july... that makes me even more broke!

haix....

i wan....

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Hiyaaaaaaaa.......

I've been busy.. but.. i dunno wad im busy with.. lol~

aniway just some short updates over here..

for pple who still dunno i had resigned... now... im officially jobless! haha... Since 10th April 2010.... ok..

Had a dinner with all of them at ECP on my last day!!! =)

things have not been so smooth for the first week...

1) my beloved red sword broke
2) i lost my damn phone!!!!! on 17th april.. the day when im suppose to meet the girls for rock climbing.. -.-" but ended up.. i did not go again...
3) i nearly lost my tooth.. lol...

ok.. lucky nth else... hahaha...

went back to PLB last week...! had my sakae sushi!!! lol.... happy happy...

hmm... aniways..
currently awaiting for my uniSim enrolment results... which is like end of may?
awaiting for choooo baby birdy to grow a little bigger... so i can have one.. =x
awaiting for money to drop from the sky..... crapz.. lol...

okie.. tomorrow is gonna be a busy day for me!

shall upload some photos other days! ciaoz~!

=D



- i want a new set of fairing from thailand~~~~~ hehe..
- i want a sport rim... wohahaha..
- i wanna change the seat~!
*bling bling*
- i want the doraemon box.. ( any one know where to get? )
LOL.. -.-"

and lots more~!
any one wanna gift me? hahaha!

Somehow, i just simply don't understand why some people gotta be so damn irritating.

aniways, i find that i'm still lucky enough that my some people is only referring to 2 person.

three words...

ACTING IN ACTION... but lousy actor.

though i dun bother... but i just feel irritated... haha.. contradicting..

thanks to the 2 of who.. because.. u let me know that hows working life is about. wad is called talk but don't do. wad is the meaning of "pai ma pi".. talking craps all around. asking things which i just simply dun wanna answer. i answered still. but got sacarstics remarks. stupid. and dumb.

BUT.. PLEASE wake up from your stupid idea. cox the whole world knows abt it except for urself.. -.-"

and yes!!! so far.. i have been working at quite a few places... at different environment.. meeting different people.. but seriously.. the 2 of them are the most irritating person that i have ever seen..

but still... im grateful because i know my site got the least politics.. because there are still nice pple around.. =) because.. out of 5 pple.. only 2 ma.. cox i dun calculate the others who are not working at office. lol...

aniways... wad i have decided is decided.. appreciate those who really do care abt.. =)
can call me stubborn but.. i think i am la..

hehe... shall see! ciaoz.

有缘无份还是宁愿没遇见过来的幸福？
如果我有的选，我宁愿一辈子都没遇过。
因为没遇过，就不会觉得痛。

CNY coming!

ok.. enough of all this craps and lobsters....

aniways... 5th feb 2010!
went to Marina square to celebrate ZR belated birthday!!!
consiting of me, iris, joline, wendy, catherine and angeline!!
ok... i dunno why ZR simply loves suki-yaki.. and i simply hate it..
but still.. we are nice pple.. we still went there for dinner.. lol.

after that.. meet wh and his gf... drinks at brewerks! ... =)

... CNY coming in another 6 more days! and its like... no CNY mood still... haha...
Day 1 is a valentines day too.. and i think its gonna be so bored because no shops are opened! lol...
Day 2... wad i looking forward to! playin blackjack and mahjong??? hehe...

everyear.. after dinner we will go to chinatown... to walk around... to see fireworks there.. but.. this year he say we go bishan! -.-" oh well... shall see..

haven even get new clothes.. and i think im not gonna get any.. since im not going aniwhere.. =D

i wanna get many things!!
- iphone (4gs? when its launch? ) hehe
- mini lappie?
- should i change my spark to fino? er... hmm... mayb not lah huh..
- and.. i want an AMAZON~!~! oh damn...
- LASTLY!!! BKK TRIP!!!!

haix.. everything so costly... but its not nessacery.. haha...
its just a luxury... =(

hope that this coming TIGER year will be a better year~!~! haha... win more leh! (to myself onli)
bleh!